Super star (I am blogging again!)

Hey blogging world!
I am semi-back for the week :)
School started out pretty rough and I didn't have time for ANYTHING. So I had to drop a few things in order to get myself on track. Sadly this blog was one of those things.
Another sad thing is that I love my disk drive that had ALL of my possible blog topics on it this week will be a 'winging it' of sorts.
I did so much and so little over my break in the blogging.

I just realized how much I hate blogging. As in just now right after that first paragraph.
I have nothing to say to the world. I am a slightly different person than I was several months ago. Different in that I don't feel the need to have thousands of people following me on twitter and reading my blog religiously.
Cutting to the chase I will blog this week because I put it into my random bag of things to do for the week. (I am on spring break so I put a bunch of things into a bag and when I can't decide what to do next I pick out of the bag. Blogging came out first.) If I decide I can't think of anything good to do with the blog I will stop.

So now to the short topic of today's blog. I am in the new Avengers trailer.

I am at 1:23 in the very from and center.
I flipped when I saw it at midnight and had to wake my sister up to show her. It is about one of the most awesome things in my life thus far.

Suddenly it was all incredibly worth it. The driving to Cleveland and back three times. Staying up for two nights and missing almost my entire second week of classes. Just being in the TRAILER made all of that seem like nothing.

On the flip side: I am currently seeing life in a new light. I can not live for the idea of being in a trailer that may or may not feature Robert Downey Jr. Or even for the hope of becoming a movie star some day. My life is far more than that. It needs to be more than that.
Not everyone can 'make it', whatever that means. But everyone can hold their life to a better, more deserving purpose. God.
I need to be more purposeful in living a life that reflects His presence in it.
If we spend our lives chasing and desiring all of the shiny things of this world we will never be fulfilled. However if we could just learn to rest in easy in the God that offers more than the glimmer of stardom we just might be able to fill our hearts and spirits with the things we need to truly be fulfilled.

This isn't to say having dreams of being in the movies is a horrific sinful blasphemy. It is just to point that these dreams can't be what get me out of bed in morning. My existence is not owed to the movies. It is owed to something far more complex and wonderful.

Create onward,
E.M.G.

Just like the Sun

This post is a tribute to my late boyfriend, David. Who, as you can see, had his head torn off by a spider monkey right in front of me. He was a wonderful person and he will be dearly missed.

Guess that means I'm back on the market! So I suppose this post is also an advertisement.
Are you a male who is attracted to females and looking for someone to spend all of your money on?
You may have just found your soul mate!

JUST KIDDING! I really hope no body thought David was dead. That would make you a pretty silly person.

I'm terribly sorry for having waited so long before posting but I gotta tell you it isn't going to get better. I really want to keep writing and that includes the blog but I just won't have as much time due to school.
I do not know if any of you have had an anatomy class before but I gotta let you know: It is NOT something you can hope to pass by glancing over the material. I consider myself a bright person but this was knocking me on my ass every day. So I had to buckle down.
The class has been condensed so it's only half a semester long. I will have a test for the same class literally 3 days classes in a row.
I'm not whining I'm just re-prioritizing. Which means the time spent on blogging gets cut.
Or maybe just the time spent planning out my blogs gets cut. It's titled 'I am Erin Michele Gabbard' so maybe it's not like I've pigeon holed myself into constantly needing to talk about acting.

What definitely won't be happening is that bracket I mentioned last time. The plan was to watch every single new fall show this year and then make a bracket like march madness. Do you have any idea how much time that would've required me to watch and analyze television? Probably close to a full time job. No thank you :)


Moving on! I have thought of a character that I want to play one day. This is in line with my goal of creating an amazing blonde female character.
The whole movie will be called 'Phoenix'. (No this isn't some Jean Grey reject plot line.)
It's a concept that comes from Doctor Who. I really love the idea of such a wise old character that still has their youth. So the Phoenix would be a creature that embodies this, but instead of being a bird it will be a woman. Who has been doing the whole 'rising from the ashes' thing for hundreds maybe thousands of years. She has also been hunted for many of those years. Because she's got this awesome power and people think they can harness it. Isn't that always what it's about? Someone taking someone else's power? Why must everyone be so greedy?

Anyhoo that's as far as I've gotten. Now someone needs to write a feature length script and cast me.

Also I tried a braid today!

My sister actually had to do it for me but I loved it and it reminded me of a Buffy episode. Ten points to whomever can guess which episode!

What have you tried this week that you've never tried before?

Create something today!

E.M.G.

Acting Post- Five Goals for the Semester

Vacation is over. A much needed vacation indeed. I managed to relax and put eveything out of my mind for one whole week. My skin was amazing, the salt water made my hair perfectly fluffy and flowy, and I got these super cute blue sunglasses for a dollar! (I know everyone is wearing this style but I do love them.)

But enough about vacation for now! I need to go through photos to decide what will make the cut so I can compose a delightful post.

Upon my return I started schooling for massage therapy. The idea behind this move is that I'll have a job that I might actually enjoy and it'll give me a flexible schedule for auditions and what not.
However it is becoming quickly apparent that school and work leave little time for frivolous things like living out your passion. So I have decided that I need to set some 'Acting Goals' for myself in order to ensure it doesn't drop into my 'once upon a time'. I might be paranoid but if you've seen Up in the Air then you've seen J.K. Simmons' performance from Up in the Air:

*Possible Spoilers Ahead!*  (Although nothing that would ruin the movie.)


When Ryan Bingham is firing this guy, Bob, Bingham points out he has culinary skills on his resume. It turns out that Bob had taken the cushy high paying desk job and hung his dreams of becoming a chef out to dry.
I do not want to wake up in 20 years having settled because I didn't feel like working any harder.
So here are five of my acting goals for the semester. (Not in any order)

1. Take at least two Silvana Gallardo acting classes.
Silvana Gallardo is this excellent teacher and actress who landed in Kentucky to recuperate after an illness. Every time a leave her class I feel more confident in my own abilities and better suited for the 'biz'. The only problem is the class is only offered twice a month and one of those times is a 2 hours drive away.

2. Create one AMAZING character for myself.
I've been noticing that all of the kick ass women on television, or in the movies, are brunnette. (And even then guys are still more prominent) Any time a blonde is portrayed it's normally her being a ditz until she learns her lesson in not being an air-head. So sick of it. Blondes havent had a really good name since Buffy and even she started out as a vain cheerleader. Also has anyone else noticed that the only super hero from the new Avengers that hasn't gotten their own movie is Black Widow? She had ONE kick ass scene in Iron Man 2 and that was only so guys could drool over her flexibility and leather uniform. But I digress. This could turn into a whole othe blog post.

3. Find one class on comedic acting and find some exercises to do on my own.
Dramatic tends to be easier just because you don't have to think as much about the next line or perhaps I'm just not as skilled at letting the next line flow. Either way I want to get better at and become more comfortable with comedy.

4. Write, film, and edit at least two skits for youtube.
I have acces to a camera and editing system and I need to take advantage of that. I've been meaning to write more and I think filming some short things on my own could force me to learn a little bit about cameras and editing.

5. Film myself acting at least once a week so I can watch myself and see what needs work.
I've been meaning to do this for a while but it seems more crucial now that I won't be able to audition for as many things. I need to look for exercises to record and see what works for me. Another thing I need to figure out with this is how to suit myself up for theatre as well as film. Should be interesting.


Another thing I've been thinking about (This isn't necessarily a goal because I'm not sure I can make the commitment just yet) is a social acting group. I think if a bunch of local actors got together and just performed for one another twice a month that would be tremendous. You wouldn't have to pay big bucks for any class it would just be actors getting together to trade tips and support. If that progresses at all I'll let you know.

So who out there has a passion? What do you need to do to make sure it doesn't slip into the attic of your life?
Set some small, managebale goals that you can work toward while you're forced to do something else like school or 'a real job'. Eventually you'll have to take a leap and hope you land alright, but I think setting smaller goals like this can help build your confidence to take that leap.


Create onward,
E.M.G.

It's Hitting the Fan

This was me before vacation:

And this will undoubtedly be me after:

 

(The during pictures should be up soon)

Right before I left for the wonderful vacation (that I haven't actually left for yet because I'm autoposting these) I found out that I would start college 2 days after I got back. Egads! To the maximum level of egads!

I have to buy books and register for classes and tell work and get enough blog posts ready to go so that I don't feel like I'm cheating myself and PACK! There is so much more to it but I will not burden you with the details. The point is: I am busy.

I'm going back to school for a massage therapy certification (more on that at another date), trying to keep up a blog that people will want to read, I still want to be an actress, I still want to write, and I really want to continue my quest to bring forth the best me in everything I do.

This includes getting back in touch God and working my mind around love without the constant fire in my chest.
 This is probably the first time in my life that I set deadlines for myself and kept them. All the blogs you've been reading since the 4th were auto published meaning I created them and had them ready to go at certain times. GO ME! Not even a year agoa I would've been like 'Screw it. It is a blog that no one is going to read anyway'. Hopefully that girl is dead, never to be heard from again.

One thing is for sure: It's hitting the fan.
Hopefully it isn't shit. Hopefully it's joy and acheivement. I would love for someone to sit me in front of an industrial size fan and sprinkle acheivment through its blades while I sit and soak it up.

It's going to be a fun semester folks! I truly enjoy being busy and I think it's awesome that I'll have one week of bliss before launching myself head first into pandamonium.

Writing! I have a play I want to write, a book, a screenplay,, and so many other ideas keep popping up in my mind. Is anyone else super excited about the things they're getting ready to start?

Let me hear it! What are you ready to start working toward?

Today is your last day to vote on my writing prompt poll so you better get there. I mean it should be right next to this post so it isn't like you'll have trouble finding it.
This has been a crazy random and spread out blog post brought to you by a worn out:
E.M.G.