It's My Flavor

I am wonderfully me. I try to love myself and God at all times. It isn't always easy.
This might be the weirdest blog post I ever write because I have no idea how to organize it. I am an insanely gorgeous mess.

I've got flavor. Not the cheap kind you can by in a bottle that has all sorts of chemicals that help ya smell better. But the real soulful kind. I am me. Me has a flavor and I'm about to give you a taste.
(Notice it isn't style. It's flavor. Style you can change on a whim. Flavor is much more difficult)

I have faith. In a higher power. Namely God/Jesus/The Holy Spirit. This faith is being tested to the extreme as of late. Forcing me to look deeper into my aspirations and driving forces. What makes me behave like me? I want to know me better so that I don't have to constantly rely on my fluctuating emotions to make a decision.
Every once in a while I'll feel a disconnect from God. I am so used to being really in tune with Him and being moved by the spirit that in the times of disconnect I question His very existence. It can not go like that anymore. It can not be a 'well I don't really feel like being a christian/actress today' kind of life. Just like in marriage you can't simply call for a divorce when you don't feel that burning passion any longer, you can not give up on yourself because you don't feel passionate each day you wake up.

So this post is dedicated to not giving up. Not giving up on myself, or God, or acting or anything that is my flavor!
 My flavor has a lot of soul. It's amazing marble brown eyes and one slightly crooked tooth in a giant smile. Huge feet that can not resist the urge to dance. It's my faith. Questioning faith is good. My flavor needs to put to the test and sometimes it'll come out tweaked just a smidgen. It happens.
My flavor is a bright yellow and a deep purple. It's love. Love for everyone who crosses my path. It's trying my best and being proud even when my best falls short of perfection. It's joyful! On any given day you can find my aura glowing with joy for all of the wonderful things I have been given, and all of the wonderful things I have to offer you. (I've never considered it or done any real research but I think I believe in auras. You know how people brighten up the room or bring it down? Aura)
It's got a little sass and it's an excellent role model for young flavors.
It certainly loves attention, but it's also comfortable on it's own.
My flavor is hair that can't seem to choose a color. My flavor is healing and giving. It has a dance. The best dance you've seen because it's a dance that doesn't care what you think.
It is everything that makes up the best possible me.

I am an actress, a philosopher, a writer, and a person who believes in God.

What's your flavor? Write a comment or just a note to yourself. Know your flavor because it's the thing you need to turn to when you can't muster up the passion or emotion necessary to keep moving.

Namaste good people!

E.M.G.